Pilgrimage To the Sacred.

yesterday i went to the Hermitage Library to return items and before leaving walked into the
The Hermitage Exhibit. Inside was the Exhibit on the Hermitage Slaves . As I walked past them I had encountered 3 Large almost Life Sized Re-prints Slave Portraits and felt an energy. Is is possible that photos had captured something of a life force, whirling particles unseen- reaching out to its viewer or maybe a shadow of a time and otherly place memories . A Pocket, a spiraling Vortex, Was it Possible to be caught up inside it? I went up to one and touched her foreheadand then moved it across her brow. It had lines , firmly planted knarled dark roots on a sweaty moist earthen face & I touched this face - I wiped sweat off her brow. The other woman , Betsy was holding the hand of a small child. My eyes rested on her old face, a caress to her spirit and then moved to the two hands , joined mine in a a firm grip. I touched those hands, I join their link. I feel her warm breath as she whispers into my h. ear. t

Affirmation.

Writing Assignment: Experiments with Affirmation

What seems so big its too much?
How can I incrementalize it and enjoy the speed of my body?


Well I have had some learning moments with Art making. I was doing another small piece and becoming more unhappier and dissatisfied by the moment and yet decided to make it into a
self teaching opportunity not nessesarily about technique but about being comfortable within myself when work doesn't come out the way i wanted it to.

Last night i cut it up into to smaller parts, perhaps to be used for smaller fun prodjects later on.

and you know what..
I felt free !!!

I had taken myself out of my own self imposed box.

i have taken a botanical Print book out from the library and my next step is to study it.

My energy seems to be coming back.
as i have been operating low low energy for quite a while now.

In terms of Affirmations.
Ah.. I remember when I was in treatment for Sexual/Ritual Trauma . There were no such
Programs in the State of Tennessee and consequently Traveled out to the South West,
New Mexico for a specialized Program.

It was an incredible Holistic Program. But i remember one activity was the Affirmation Cards that we made. They were simple ones. It was an incredible program and i was so lucky to get out there.

Because the first most cleansing affirmation that i had ever recieved were the simple words :

I believe you.

Well. Its Done.

and am taking a short break from

Design/Painting.

d.

the pic on the right came out a bit on the bright side.

Funny. But as I kid I remember gobbling up ( reading) all of Fin-Fan Moomingtroll

books written by Finnish Writer Tov Jansson

oh yea and below I have pasted an Ilustration by Tov Jannson.

She did all of her own Illustrations.. Perhaps I'd have called my small piece, " Spring Time for A MoominTroll" d

The Painting box.

Finishing off the blue.

Same Piece . now beginning with the detail ink.

Big piece at the bottom is not working out well.

but.. at least its a test piece.

the Next Phase.. of the Painting.

The piece small is coming along.

in increments.

I made what I thought was a big mistake

but prayed!

and it worked out okay.

posted from,

just call me Dopey as I am on strong anti-biotics

and also eye anti-biotic drops. etc.

Incremental.. bit by bit

I begin with a prayer to the blank canvass to help me bring out what is already there.. I ask for guidance.. I ask to learn..

So sorry that i didn't make this weekend to our training.

any way.. my last 3 weeks have been fruitful in spite of stuff.

this is an uncomplet small test piece.-

that I will do a larger one in the Spring or Summer. Once I have the basic ideas down.

I thought it might helpful and also affirminative to to analog it while it is in process...

over and out,

d